Under the mental health section here, I would like to try and give my personal insight, including mental and emotionally, on getting back into shape again in a series called, "For Myself". I wrote a post previously about "Getting Real" where I spoke about my feelings about how I look and feel. I gave some idea of why I am at the weight I am and how I feel about it.
The picture to the left is of me after giving birth to two children. Oddly enough, I thought then that I was overweight, but now, I know better. I do not want to be back to my high school weight. I want curves. I want to be a beautiful woman who gave birth to four beautiful children, but right now, I feel like I am old when I am still young. I feel unhappy with not being able to fit into the clothing that I like. I want to be the same size I was after giving birth to two children. Moreover, I want to be healthy again. I have narcolepsy (not the kind where you drop down a pass out), but I am tired so often. I have arthritis in my back from an auto accident and take medication for depression and anxiety, which doubles as a pain medication for Fibromyalgia. I am so angry because I often feel trapped in my own body. I love to bike and hike, I craved fitness and loved being active especially when I use to work at the YMCA.
I now take medication to try to become a better and more well rounded woman yet still getting up and being motivated to get to the gym and to eat right is difficult. So, here I am, sharing my journey to becoming better physically and mentally. I am trying to figure out how to eat better and how to keep myself motivated to work out on a regular basis. So, please stay with me as I share personal details about how I feel throughout my journey. I have considered using "Noom" a workout website, but feel like I should get some form of a discount seeing as how my paternal name and maintain name is in fact, "Noom". Please stay tuned. I am now off to a chiropractic appointment, which is yet another method I use to continue to feel normal.
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