Let's Get Real
|After my afternoon workout at the gym|
Let me be clear, I know that I am smart and talented and funny and a great mom and moreover, I am loved by God beyond belief, but I still have trouble with who I am on a daily basis. I have arthritis in my back and Fibromyalgia that causes serious body pain. I am terribly fatigued every single day. I had a terrible reaction to the drugs after a surgery a year ago, and my skin looks terrible with scars and continuous bumps. However, here I am, really trying to be the best that I can be and as we know that is really something else. I am trying to be quiet long enough for God to whisper in my ear "you look so beautiful" like a man would his cherished love. I want to show what I look like after workout: sweaty, dark circles, skin blemishes, ugly workout clothes and all. This is me. This is me blessed beyond belief because I have more than many people will have in a lifetime. Still, I am trying to love the body that I am in, I am fighting to be that beautiful woman who hears God whisper in her ear, responding, "thank you God, I believe you".